I have purposely set out to keep myself occupied as much as humanly possible. It's not that my only daughter went away to college, and left an obvious gap in my life that has me running all over the world. It's the unpredictable fate of change that has me running. Everything that I was familiar with has been snatched from my agenda. Somedays, I even miss writing the check to her Tennis Coach. When you love someone ,sometimes their life intertwines with yours in such a way that seperation from them can be painful.
It's not a sad adjustment to move beyond where we are in life that causes some of us to run. I believe it's the holes that get left in our daily routine. As I write this note to myself. I'm realizing that I'm happy to be, "Free," to run around and fill in some of my personal blanks. But, I'm still aware that the holes left in my life will never be filled. I don't want them to. I'm calling them my memories of the past. They keep me company when I'm dead ass tired from chasing the undiscovered parts of life. If you get anything out of life, you must make your perspective your guide. At least, that's the note that I have written to myself. I want to jump off a cliff, but I want to live to tell the story about the fall.