Happy, Happy Sunday!
“The Ultimate Mommy and Me Vacation.”
January 2018
It would not have happened if you didn’t insist. I was just living life trying to be great, and you stopped me and reminded me that Daughter of Ours needed to have some time with just me.
We both raised her with an abundant amount of love and life. You have clearly been the best boss for the both of us. We both need you to parent us. That Daughter of ours always looks to me to be her personal/ virtual tour guide in life. Well, I heard you when you reminded me that I should take her away on a vacation. I kept thinking that our life is a vacation. But, you were right.
She held my hand and talked to me until she fell asleep every night. She hugged me and told me that I was her role model. She even said that she knew for certain that I was going to make it to Heaven one day. That girl even said, “Mommy, you are the only true believer that I have ever met.” I cried myself to sleep; I wept inside the entire trip. I cried tears of joy!
Thank you so much for paying for that Christain High School education. Phoenix even thanked me for choosing you to love. She asked me questions about love, and how to determine why love sometimes ends. I didn’t have all the answers to her life questions, but I assured her that the love of God and self is what matters most. We laughed out loud about boys, what to name her 4 children that she longs for, and about the day when I will not be here for her to love in person. She promised to only keep my big handbags and give the small ones away. I made her promise me, to not let my absence ever be devastating to her soul;
To always be able to let me go with profound respect and honor. I reminded her that she will have to often encourage herself. I told her the truth; That I prayed for her; That I am blessed to be her Mother for as long as the Lord allows. I demanded that she understand that God will always be her present help. You are my hero for never standing in the way of my dream Daughter. You spoil us at an unbelievable rate. Of course, neither one of us is perfect. But, no one; No one will ever be able to say that we were not team players. We never lost our way. There will never be any doubt that we didn’t work together to raise the best of each other for her. Even if no one ever truly understands; I still have to say it; Love is built on respect. Love is a reflection of life choices. Love cannot be transferred. Love is lonely; It is not what two people share; it is what one person chooses to relinquish. Love does not come with rules, regulations, or reasoning. Love rapes one from the intimate freedom of hope, dreams, and certainty sometimes. Love has continuous beginnings and a limitless rebound of endings. Love is a testimony. Love cannot be seen in pictures of people. Love is invisible. Love is a moving target. Love can sometimes manifest itself in pain more than pleasure. Love is a choice; A hard choice. Love is never questioned. Real love has audacity, knows no doubt, worry, jealousy, or finality. It goes on and on. Our love has a name. It is Phoenix. My name is Angelia, and I still choose you. You made it easy, even when it was hard. Love is, and will always be our legacy.
Thanks again Love!
I just don’t want anyone to wonder. Winning the lottery is easier. It’s a one in a million chance. Love is not a game one can choose to play. Love is a gift of completion; A magnificent mystery that even mystifies miracles.
I had the best vacation ever!!! Hello, cold ass weather in Atlanta. We’re back!
Namaste